So many people hide behind masks and for many reasons. And it's their own business, if that is what they want to do but REALLY, why would you want to be fake? And I have been guilty of that myself so I'm not judging. I learned how to put a smile on and act like nothing is wrong a long, long time ago. But there are a few people that truly know me and can see through me like a crystal clear window. And I love that those people can do that.
Some people would be creeped out by that, not me. I'm glad that these people know me like that...that they took the time to not take "I'm fine" for an answer. I'm surprised more people don't see through me easier. I don't hold my emotions back too much. Anyone who knows me has seen me cry. I have cried in the middle of Kroger's, Walmart, church, in a driveway, while running, in the middle of a rock concert, the beginning of a parade, the end of any race that I have ever ran in. I don't care where I am at.
There are so many reasons why people hide behind the "I am fine" mask. They don't want to bother anyone with their problems. They are afraid to be looked upon as being "too sensitive". They have their reasons and it's their prerogative to not share that with anyone. I find it therapeutic to write about my feelings and also to talk them out with certain people. And I'm finding out that there are others like me.
So, the next time I see someone in a store and I tell them "Hello, how are you", I will pause to listen to them, if need be. And the next time that I wish that I wasn't such as big baby, I will remember that it's so much better to not "hide" behind that mask. There is nothing wrong with crying when you need to cry, screaming when you need to scream. It's okay to not be okay all the time! So, try not to hide those things about you that you don't like because the more you start to accept yourself for who you truly are, the smiles and the laughs will be truly genuine.
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