Monday, November 21, 2011

A reward in all this...

Yup, I know it's been awhile since I last blogged.  It's time again for some "Monica" insight!  Hee-Hee!  I found a quote that helped "center" me again.  I usually get my "centering" from my running but I have been taken a little break from that.  At least for me, I need to be as focused as possible before I set foot outside or on the treadmill.  I haven't had that lately but I will get that back.

I'm learning so much lately about myself and life in general.  Call me unique but I feel that we, as people, are given the tools to fix ourselves, change ourselves, you name it.  I'm not against anyone who needs any sort of help whatsoever, I just choose to deal with things myself.  I control my thoughts and actions alone so why would I want anyone else to tell me how to do that or fix the things that I need to?

In the scheme of losing the weight, I knew I needed to get myself better emotionally and mentally too!  I have had years and years of bad thoughts about myself.  I sure in the heck didn't want to think that way about myself but life happens and you start to believe things that are said to you.  I think every kid should feel special about themselves.  To feel as if they count and what they say counts.  And for the record, I was not treated this way by my parents or my siblings.

I read a quote once by Marilyn Monroe and it said "All little girls should be told they are pretty, even if they aren't."  Not that I am for lying to your daughter or son for that matter but it sure would've helped my self-esteem and I think it would help other little girls/boys feel better about themselves.  I have found even the most gorgeous women out there feel badly about themselves.  In a strange sort of a way, I find that refreshing.  I just thought that I was the only person in this world who had bad feelings towards myself.

We have society shoving it down our throats how we should look, act, and etc.  I don't care how many compliments I have gotten since my "tranformation" of sorts but I did this for me and not for anyone else.  I did it to be a healthier Monica...inside and out!  I believe that you should strive to continue to grow.  Don't remain too sendentary in your thoughts.  You should want to be a better person.

I find myself slipping back and forth into the negative thoughts.  It remains a constant battle with me and it's one that I don't like.  I have faith...that eventually I won't give anything a passing thought.  I will be able to shrug things off.  I will be able to look fear in the face and laugh at it!

Call that cocky sounding but I find myself wanting to be "a force to be reckoned with woman"!  I Am Woman, Hear Me Roar, of sorts.  Hee-Hee!  It may be a pipe dream of mine, but it's my dream!

"Losing a pound isn't necessarily a reward. Being healthy and feeling good about yourself is the reward."~~Nancy Peterson