And as strange as it sounds, my goal is mine. It's more than a goal to me...it's an accomplishment and I'm trying hard to attain it. It's been a long 5 years and no one understands what I feel and what I go through month after month. I'm not trying to get super skinny. At one point, when I started my weight loss journey, I wanted to look a certain way. And I was very close to goal but I was obsessed and it wasn't "healthy". Last month, someone showed me how to look at it differently. For 3 1/2 years or more, I have kept close to 80 lbs off...maintained...not that I wanted to maintain just quite yet! LOL!
So, as I sit here trying not to think too much (which is very hard to do for this analytical girl), I need to remember a few simple things. 1. I need to celebrate the fact that I have maintained for this long, that I haven't gained back every single pound that I worked so hard to lose in the first place. 2. I need to be more gentle with myself, to show myself the compassion that I show others. 3. To love me, regardless of whether I am a size 2 or size 12. 4. And probably the most important thing...that I am more than that stupid number! I am me and I am worthy!