I'm learning so much lately about myself and life in general. Call me unique but I feel that we, as people, are given the tools to fix ourselves, change ourselves, you name it. I'm not against anyone who needs any sort of help whatsoever, I just choose to deal with things myself. I control my thoughts and actions alone so why would I want anyone else to tell me how to do that or fix the things that I need to?
In the scheme of losing the weight, I knew I needed to get myself better emotionally and mentally too! I have had years and years of bad thoughts about myself. I sure in the heck didn't want to think that way about myself but life happens and you start to believe things that are said to you. I think every kid should feel special about themselves. To feel as if they count and what they say counts. And for the record, I was not treated this way by my parents or my siblings.
I read a quote once by Marilyn Monroe and it said "All little girls should be told they are pretty, even if they aren't." Not that I am for lying to your daughter or son for that matter but it sure would've helped my self-esteem and I think it would help other little girls/boys feel better about themselves. I have found even the most gorgeous women out there feel badly about themselves. In a strange sort of a way, I find that refreshing. I just thought that I was the only person in this world who had bad feelings towards myself.
We have society shoving it down our throats how we should look, act, and etc. I don't care how many compliments I have gotten since my "tranformation" of sorts but I did this for me and not for anyone else. I did it to be a healthier Monica...inside and out! I believe that you should strive to continue to grow. Don't remain too sendentary in your thoughts. You should want to be a better person.
I find myself slipping back and forth into the negative thoughts. It remains a constant battle with me and it's one that I don't like. I have faith...that eventually I won't give anything a passing thought. I will be able to shrug things off. I will be able to look fear in the face and laugh at it!
Call that cocky sounding but I find myself wanting to be "a force to be reckoned with woman"! I Am Woman, Hear Me Roar, of sorts. Hee-Hee! It may be a pipe dream of mine, but it's my dream!
"Losing a pound isn't necessarily a reward. Being healthy and feeling good about yourself is the reward."~~Nancy Peterson
